Wowsers. It’s been over a year…probably close to about 13 months since I last scribbled something under this blog. I never lost mental step though. I’ve been blessed to have some of you follow during the midst of my hiatus. What can I say? It’s been a tough road transitioning out of the the South. I brought some tools that have been useful to get used to the midwestern way. However, some of the tools can no longer be used because I’m not the same person who set upward and beyond the dixon line for a new adventure.
So much has changed my trajectory and often I don’t realize it until a good bit of time has passed. I’m reading more about the notion of being an “Empath” as of recent. I simply thought I had resorted to a full time introvert in an extrovert’s body. Seriously, I became nervous two weeks ago as I noticed my love for staying inside and away from people when I didn’t need to engage. What I have come to realize more and more is that energy means a lot to me. I no longer indulge in environments where people have not done their work, are unsure of their voice, or simply live double minded lives on purpose–not happen stance. I can no longer be around the heavy energies or the fake i’m alright, but really I have issues that I refuse to acknowledge.
I’m not better than anyone. I just don’t have the capacity to be in mixed company when it comes to energy. Not super woke. Just becoming more aware of the type of energies that wear me thinner. I no longer make up reasons to be out. I’m finding peace by my lonesome and when it’s something deeper, I call the ball on it and seek the support that I need.
Yeah, in between all of these energy shifts have been tremendous opportunities to invest back into the local community with leadership development for the youth and doing the same within the industry. I’ve also been blessed with some spur of the moment traveling here and there. I’m reading books on surrendering and allowing life/God to direct my path. Some days are still hard but I find more gratitude and peace than I did 13 months ago.
So, cheers to everyone who followed during my absence and those from before. I care about you all and thank you for joining me on this ever present journey.